This is going to be the most personal blog I have ever written but, I feel as though I need to let out some pressure.
About two or three months ago, I noticed a lump in my left underarm. I had talked to the Doctor about it, and he felt that it was probably just a cyst. He told me to keep an eye on it and let him know if anything changed. Well, it has since gotten a little bigger and very painful. So, Wednesday when I went to work I decided that I needed to talk to him about it again. He felt of it and said that it was bigger and was reaching closer to my left breast. So he now wants me to get a mammogram and ultrasound of it.
Well one of the girls that I work with made the appointment for me, I am bad about putting off appointments for myself, saying that I will make it later and never do. So I now have to go next Thursday for these tests to be ran. I have to say that I wasn't very concerned until I stopped and let reality hit me.
There are a lot of things that can make you a higher risk for breast cancer. Of course working in a doctors office we have a list. I was looking at this list and have almost everything going against me on this. One of the things listed was my size because I was blessed I have a 1 out of 2,500 chance of getting breast cancer. That was just the first one. If you have someone in your immediate family that had breast cancer then your chances are like 1 out of 250. Well I have both of those. So I guess that makes me an even bigger chance of getting breast cancer.
So needless to say I am really starting to worry. I am only 30 years old. I just turned 30 a little over a month ago. I have seen first hand the effects cancer can have on a family. I watched my dad battle cancer for 9 long years before he lost his battle. Then my dad's mom died from breast cancer, about 3 years after my dad. Then my father-in-law also lost his battle with cancer about four years ago. Plus working in a doctors office I see about 4-5 cancer patients every week.
This has turned into a pretty scary thing. I am hoping that it is not cancer, and trying to keep my hopes up but it is getting harder to do. It is hard not to think about it. What does not help is four years ago I had a spot under my nose. I had been sent to Dr. McIntires because I had a lot of ear infections and the first thing he said to me when he walked into the room was how long has that spot been there? I had told him it was there for about a year or so. Then he said I want to take it off it looks like cancer to me. Big slap, I was there for my ears and now he says he wants to cut my face open. Well to make a long story short I set up the appointment that day to take off the spot and two weeks later found out it was not cancer. Thank god.
Well I am sure that whatever happens I will deal with it one day at a time which is all any of us can do. With any luck it will not be cancer and this worrying will have been for nothing.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Health Care Bill Passed
Okay as we all have heard the health care bill that President Obama wanted was passed earlier this week.
In Washington, there are a number of angry people over the health care bill that has passed. Well because there are a lot of people out there that do not want this bill passed, they are now turning to destruction of some offices and picketing outside the white house. Well, for those who may not know this health care bill, is going to cost companies over a million dollars the first year. It also states that everyone in America has to get health care. If anyone does not get health care they are saying that people will get a fine of $3,000. Which is dumb because if they stop and think about it most people do not have health care because they cannot afford it. So how are these people going to pay for a fine that high if they cannot afford health care.
They are saying that this bill is a good thing, but I have yet to see the up side of this bill on the part of the people or even companies. There are a lot of little companies that do not offer health care because it is too expensive. The office I work in does not provide insurance, the up side to this is that I work for a doctor so instead of health insurance he treats me and my family at no cost to us.
There are now 12 states that are planning on suing the government because this bill is unconstitutional. Missouri is one of those 12 states. I am glad that we have someone in office working for us not against us. This bill is one of those things that makes most stop to think that we are supposed to be a free country, so how can they do this. This makes some stop to wonder why we are fighting for other countries to be free when our own country is turning its back on us.
I hope that this thing is stopped. This country is already so far into debt that it is hurting the economy, and now the so called government is trying to keep the country in debt. I think that if this becomes a sure thing and they go all the way with it them this country will be worse off then it is now.
In Washington, there are a number of angry people over the health care bill that has passed. Well because there are a lot of people out there that do not want this bill passed, they are now turning to destruction of some offices and picketing outside the white house. Well, for those who may not know this health care bill, is going to cost companies over a million dollars the first year. It also states that everyone in America has to get health care. If anyone does not get health care they are saying that people will get a fine of $3,000. Which is dumb because if they stop and think about it most people do not have health care because they cannot afford it. So how are these people going to pay for a fine that high if they cannot afford health care.
They are saying that this bill is a good thing, but I have yet to see the up side of this bill on the part of the people or even companies. There are a lot of little companies that do not offer health care because it is too expensive. The office I work in does not provide insurance, the up side to this is that I work for a doctor so instead of health insurance he treats me and my family at no cost to us.
There are now 12 states that are planning on suing the government because this bill is unconstitutional. Missouri is one of those 12 states. I am glad that we have someone in office working for us not against us. This bill is one of those things that makes most stop to think that we are supposed to be a free country, so how can they do this. This makes some stop to wonder why we are fighting for other countries to be free when our own country is turning its back on us.
I hope that this thing is stopped. This country is already so far into debt that it is hurting the economy, and now the so called government is trying to keep the country in debt. I think that if this becomes a sure thing and they go all the way with it them this country will be worse off then it is now.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Time To Freak Out
I am freaking out this semester. I have only online classes. I took three classes this semester, which I had thought were easier classes. According to a student adviser that signed me up for my classes the history and Math classes that I took were the easiest ones. Well guess what they are not!
I am doing okay in history I guess, just need to figure out how to retain more of the hundred or so pages that I have to read for each quiz every two weeks. So that class doesn't concern me as bad as the math class that I am in. This class is of course the third one. I don't mind this class too much it is hard sometimes but, I am getting by pretty good. At least in this class and the history class I understand what I am doing or need to do.
The math class is what is killing me!!! I took math 131 because I was told it was easier than 130. Well I took the midterm and the results was not pretty. I spend two hours just to do 9 homework problems. TWO HOURS!!!! I am horrible at math, so it is hard for me to understand why an x is considered some crazy number. Why can't they just put numbers in the problems? And why do I need to know how to graph these crazy things? What will I ever need to graph? I am thinking business management, not math major!!
I am getting so far behind and I cannot seem to comprehend this stuff. I am trying to find a tutor for math 131 if anyone out there knows anyone who can help. What makes this even harder is I am working full-time, and school of course, then to top it off me and my husband have an online business. Not to mention the fact that we have four kids and all of them are active in boy scouts, cub scouts, drama class, track, and now baseball.
So I am now to the point where I beg, if anyone knows how to get a tutor or if anyone knows a tutor please have them email me at montgomerya001@mymail.mssu.edu
I know that we are supposed to do an opinion piece so I think that this should be an opinion piece. In my opinion math is horrible and hard. If anyone reading this is a math major my hat is off to you. You have to really like math and numbers to be able to do it. So great job, congratulations. But as for me I am NO math major.
I am doing okay in history I guess, just need to figure out how to retain more of the hundred or so pages that I have to read for each quiz every two weeks. So that class doesn't concern me as bad as the math class that I am in. This class is of course the third one. I don't mind this class too much it is hard sometimes but, I am getting by pretty good. At least in this class and the history class I understand what I am doing or need to do.
The math class is what is killing me!!! I took math 131 because I was told it was easier than 130. Well I took the midterm and the results was not pretty. I spend two hours just to do 9 homework problems. TWO HOURS!!!! I am horrible at math, so it is hard for me to understand why an x is considered some crazy number. Why can't they just put numbers in the problems? And why do I need to know how to graph these crazy things? What will I ever need to graph? I am thinking business management, not math major!!
I am getting so far behind and I cannot seem to comprehend this stuff. I am trying to find a tutor for math 131 if anyone out there knows anyone who can help. What makes this even harder is I am working full-time, and school of course, then to top it off me and my husband have an online business. Not to mention the fact that we have four kids and all of them are active in boy scouts, cub scouts, drama class, track, and now baseball.
So I am now to the point where I beg, if anyone knows how to get a tutor or if anyone knows a tutor please have them email me at montgomerya001@mymail.mssu.edu
I know that we are supposed to do an opinion piece so I think that this should be an opinion piece. In my opinion math is horrible and hard. If anyone reading this is a math major my hat is off to you. You have to really like math and numbers to be able to do it. So great job, congratulations. But as for me I am NO math major.
Anna Nicole Smith Loses Estate
As we all know Anna Nicole Smith died in 2007, from an apparent drug overdose.
Well back in 1994 when she was 26 years old, she had married an 89 year old, named J. Howard Marshall. He was a very rich man with an estate estimated to be in the billions. Well about one year after they married he passed away. His son E. Pierce Marshall has been fighting her tooth and nail over the money.
She claimed that Howard Marshall had promised her half of whatever was earned during their marriage. His son is saying that this is not true and that she was basically a gold digger. They have been in and out of court ever since. Well, I guess they were apparently still waiting on the supreme courts decision on this matter, because three years after she died they finally reached a ruling that she cannot have the money.
I think that this is a bunch of crap. Because for one the son died back in 2006. Then Anna Nicole died in 2007. I don't feel that they have any right now to take that money from her daughter who happens to be her sole heir to everything that she had. I feel that there was someone from the Marshall family that was so mad that they had probably lost a small piece to their trust fund to Anna and was not going to stop until they got it back. It sounds to me like a spoiled little rich brat.
I also think that this just goes to show that how bad and slow our justice system is. This is crazy the two people who were fighting over this died three and four years ago. Now that they are dead they are finally ruling on it. Sounds to me like someone was well paid!!!!
Well back in 1994 when she was 26 years old, she had married an 89 year old, named J. Howard Marshall. He was a very rich man with an estate estimated to be in the billions. Well about one year after they married he passed away. His son E. Pierce Marshall has been fighting her tooth and nail over the money.
She claimed that Howard Marshall had promised her half of whatever was earned during their marriage. His son is saying that this is not true and that she was basically a gold digger. They have been in and out of court ever since. Well, I guess they were apparently still waiting on the supreme courts decision on this matter, because three years after she died they finally reached a ruling that she cannot have the money.
I think that this is a bunch of crap. Because for one the son died back in 2006. Then Anna Nicole died in 2007. I don't feel that they have any right now to take that money from her daughter who happens to be her sole heir to everything that she had. I feel that there was someone from the Marshall family that was so mad that they had probably lost a small piece to their trust fund to Anna and was not going to stop until they got it back. It sounds to me like a spoiled little rich brat.
I also think that this just goes to show that how bad and slow our justice system is. This is crazy the two people who were fighting over this died three and four years ago. Now that they are dead they are finally ruling on it. Sounds to me like someone was well paid!!!!
Friday, March 5, 2010
What Irritates Me Most
If anyone else out there has an ex spouse, then I am sure you will understand where I am coming from.
I have not just my ex husband that I have to deal with but my husband has an ex wife that I also have to deal with on a weekly basis. What gets to me more than anything about my ex husband and his wife is that they think that their crap don't stink. They are the type of people that think that they are better an everyone. The reason this irritates me is they have got my oldest two kids acting the same way. My oldest children are 14 and 12. My daughter thinks that she has to tell me all the time how great her dad and step mom are, and how their stuff is better than mine. My daughter has even went so far as to tell me that my stepson is basically nothing. My oldest son is the same way. He is constantly telling me how his step mom and dad are better than me. This stuff really hurts my feelings and I have tried to explain this to my children but they act like they do not care.
Then I have to deal with my stepsons mom who does nothing but live off welfare and sit at home and change husbands every two years. She has took my stepson to Walmart and put shoes, coats, and hats on him take the tags off and walk him out of the store. She has taught him how to do a number of drugs. She is always telling him how and where she has sexual relations at. She recently taught him how to use tampons. This I haven't figured out. He is a boy and doesn't need to know how to do this. We have reported her on numerous occasions. But there have been no actions taken against her. She seems to get away with everything she does.
This is the kind of things that we put up with weekly. Not just from one but two ex spouses. I know that we made our beds and now have to live with our choices. but when will enough be enough and when will these people grow up and be adults. It is hard enough raising four kids, nut when three of them are from two families and one is ours it is hard to not let all this outside crap get to our youngest son.
My best advice is to think before you do and be sure of the person you are marrying.
I have not just my ex husband that I have to deal with but my husband has an ex wife that I also have to deal with on a weekly basis. What gets to me more than anything about my ex husband and his wife is that they think that their crap don't stink. They are the type of people that think that they are better an everyone. The reason this irritates me is they have got my oldest two kids acting the same way. My oldest children are 14 and 12. My daughter thinks that she has to tell me all the time how great her dad and step mom are, and how their stuff is better than mine. My daughter has even went so far as to tell me that my stepson is basically nothing. My oldest son is the same way. He is constantly telling me how his step mom and dad are better than me. This stuff really hurts my feelings and I have tried to explain this to my children but they act like they do not care.
Then I have to deal with my stepsons mom who does nothing but live off welfare and sit at home and change husbands every two years. She has took my stepson to Walmart and put shoes, coats, and hats on him take the tags off and walk him out of the store. She has taught him how to do a number of drugs. She is always telling him how and where she has sexual relations at. She recently taught him how to use tampons. This I haven't figured out. He is a boy and doesn't need to know how to do this. We have reported her on numerous occasions. But there have been no actions taken against her. She seems to get away with everything she does.
This is the kind of things that we put up with weekly. Not just from one but two ex spouses. I know that we made our beds and now have to live with our choices. but when will enough be enough and when will these people grow up and be adults. It is hard enough raising four kids, nut when three of them are from two families and one is ours it is hard to not let all this outside crap get to our youngest son.
My best advice is to think before you do and be sure of the person you are marrying.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Sex Offenders
I am sure that most of you have heard about the guy named John Albert Gardner III. If not I will fill you in real quick. He is a registered sex offender whose psychiatrist stated that he was still a danger to young girls. Mr. Gardner was in prison and up for parole when his doctor made this statement. But for reasons unknown he was released anyway. Mr. Gardner is now facing a murder charge in the death of a young girl named Chelsea King.
The police are even looking into the possibility that he had something to do with the disappearance of another 14 year old girl named Amber Dubois. Amber disappeared last February and has not been seen since.
Here is what I do not get. Why on GOD's green earth would a parole board be dumb enough to release a man whose doctor says that he is a danger to young girls? If they had not released this sick man there would still be a young girl alive, possibly two young girls. They said on the news last night that sex offenders are monitored but that they sometimes give the wrong address to police and so therefore they are not being monitored. They had another man on the news who is also a registered sex offender who stated, "unless they are getting counseling they will never be okay to live in society." I happen to agree with this. You cannot put a man in jail for five years and expect him to be better the minute he gets out. You have to counsel him for the rest of his life. Even then I feel that some of these men are still a danger.
There is a web site that I have tried repeatedly to remember how to find and for the life of me I cannot remember where it is. But you can go on it and put in your address and it will show you all the registered sex offenders within like five miles of your house. Me and my husband done this one time and it showed I think 12 or 13. That is a lot. I know that not all of them are child cases but it is still scary.
I wrote about this because I want everyone to be aware of the dangers so close to their homes. I think I may have found another website that you can check for sex offenders near you .
The police are even looking into the possibility that he had something to do with the disappearance of another 14 year old girl named Amber Dubois. Amber disappeared last February and has not been seen since.
Here is what I do not get. Why on GOD's green earth would a parole board be dumb enough to release a man whose doctor says that he is a danger to young girls? If they had not released this sick man there would still be a young girl alive, possibly two young girls. They said on the news last night that sex offenders are monitored but that they sometimes give the wrong address to police and so therefore they are not being monitored. They had another man on the news who is also a registered sex offender who stated, "unless they are getting counseling they will never be okay to live in society." I happen to agree with this. You cannot put a man in jail for five years and expect him to be better the minute he gets out. You have to counsel him for the rest of his life. Even then I feel that some of these men are still a danger.
There is a web site that I have tried repeatedly to remember how to find and for the life of me I cannot remember where it is. But you can go on it and put in your address and it will show you all the registered sex offenders within like five miles of your house. Me and my husband done this one time and it showed I think 12 or 13. That is a lot. I know that not all of them are child cases but it is still scary.
I wrote about this because I want everyone to be aware of the dangers so close to their homes. I think I may have found another website that you can check for sex offenders near you .
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